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kopeerait © 2020 medalin monjel dvaara sarvaadhikaar surakshit. is prakaashan ke kisee bhee bhaag ko prakaashak ke poorv likhit anumati ke bina, sankshipt uddharan ke maamale mein chhodakar, kisee bhee roop mein ya kisee bhee tarah se ya photokopee, rikording, ya any ilektronik ya yaantrik tareekon se, kisee bhee roop mein preshit nahin kiya ja sakata hai. mahatvapoorn sameekshaon mein aur kopeerait kaanoon dvaara anumat kuchh any gair-vaanijyik upayog. anumati anurodhon ke lie, prakaashak ko likhen, neeche die gae pate par "dhyaan: anumatiyaan samanvayak," sambodhit kiya. alpha buk prakaashak 727 mukhy sent, moosik, peee 18507 www.alphapublishair.chom aadesh kee jaanakaaree: maatra kee bikree. nigamon, sanghon aur any logon dvaara maatra khareed par vishesh chhoot upalabdh hai. vivaran ke lie, uparokt pate par prakaashak se sampark karen. amerikee vyaapaar bukastor aur thok vikretaon dvaara aadesh ke lie. adhik jaanane ke lie www.alphapublishair.chom/chontacht-us par jaen. amerika ke sanyukt raajy amerika mein chhapee nishtha elee ke lie, eleesan too maay skaaralet. aapake antaheen samarthan ke lie dhanyavaad. vishayasoochee kopeerait nishtha vishayasoochee … praakkathan… 1 toophaan se pahale shaant ... 7 kramabaddh-ajanabee 15 41 se adhoora chamatkaaree maanasoon 52 kaheen nahin chhupa 73 abhootapoorv 96 a lait in da daark 110 deja vu 135 samajhauta 164 otopaayalat 168 gupt bahan ... 193 bigadana 210 vishayasoochee (jaaree) breking point… 224 sahee yojana 244 looj ends 250 vaayar 255 ke tahat dabal-kros 261 Foreword main apane bistar par chhalaang lagaata hoon aur apane garm aur mulaayam kambal ke neeche karl karata hoon- mere ghar se nikalane vaalee ekamaatr aaraamadaayak vastu. main apanee naak ke oopar kambal kheenchata hoon aur usakee gandh mein saans leta hoon. mujhe apane ghar kee bahut yaad aatee hai. mainne beete ek saal mein bahut kuchh khoya hai, lekin jo cheej mujhe sabase jyaada yaad aaegee, vah hai skool se ghar aakar yaadon kee sabase khushiyon se bhara ghar. main bas se utar jaata aur porch mein bhaag jaata, jaldee se apane daravaaje ke saamane vaale daravaaje par apana kod darj karata. kaimare mein dekho, muskuraaya, pahachaana. daravaaja analok hoga aur main phat jaega, halke se klik karane ke baad yah mere peechhe band ho gaya. main khushee se rasoee mein chhod doonga jisamen taazee pake hue bred kee khushaboo aa rahee thee, mere chehare par ek vistrt muskaan ban rahee thee. main apanee maan ka abhivaadan karoonga jo khaane kee mej par baithee thee, dhairy se rotee khatm hone ka intazaar kar rahee thee. vah apane kaam se dikhatee hai aur mujh par apanee sabase pyaaree muskaan bikheratee hai. vah muskuraahat kisee bhee kamare ko roshan kar sakatee thee. maan ek gale lagaane ke lie mein mujhe laane ke lie aur mere sir ke oopar chumban isase pahale ki main mej par baith gae aur use apane din ke baare mein bataane ke lie shuroo kar diya jaega. elisan, henaree, klaudiya, braiden aur hamaare pita mere peechhe peechhe chal rahe the, kampit samay mein rasoee mein pravesh kar rahe the. jab sab log aaye, to hamaare beech ek badee paarivaarik charcha hogee - kuchh aisa jo jyaadaatar gharon mein kabhee nahin hota. main vaastav mein bhaagyashaalee hoon ki mujhe is tarah ke pyaar bhare ghar mein rakha gaya hai. unake bina, ya ve sabak jo unhonne mujhe sikhae hain, mujhe nahin lagata ki main ise ab tak bana saka hoon. main aahen bharata hoon aur chhat par dekhata hoon, mere gaal ko cheerata hua ek aansoo nikalata hai. mujhe un dinon kee yaad aatee hai jab sab kuchh sanrachit tha - jab mere lie sab kuchh nirdhaarit kiya gaya tha aur kisee ko kabhee bhee kho jaane ya chot lagane kee chinta nahin karanee thee. sab kuchh ab bahut alag hai. jab mere maathe mein dard hota hai to main vaapas aa jaata hoon, ise phir se shuroo karane ka samay jaanakar. main anichchha se uthata hoon aur apane bistar ke bagal mein seement ke pharsh par bacha hua aais paik uthaata hoon. main apane maathe ke khilaaph paik ko dheere se pakadata hoon aur kuchh dard door ho jaata hai, lekin yah sab nahin. ek aais paik kisee aise vyakti kee madad karane mein madad nahin kar sakata hai jise aap pyaar karate hain. mujhe ek shaant charamaraatee aavaaz sunaee detee hai aur mainne aais paik ko neeche set kiya, jaldee se seedha kiya. main apane donon gaalon se aansoo ponchhata hoon aur apane chehare ko utane hee asabhy banaata hoon jitana main kar sakata hoon. lekin itana sab hone ke baad bhee, main abhee bhee apane haathon ko apanee taraph hilaate hue mahasoos kar sakata hoon kyonki meree hatheliyon mein paseena aane lagata hai. yah samay hai; mujhe yojana se chipakana hoga. mere kamare ka dhaatu ka daravaaja khul gaya aur vah andar chal pada. mainne raahat kee saans lee. “tum mere saamane bakavaas se dar gae. mainne socha-" "main janata." kya vah sab kahata hai. mainne apane haathon ko apane koolhon par laaparavaahee se rakh diya aur apane haathon par apane paseene kee chhotee-chhotee parat ko ponchhane ke lie unhen neeche kee or saraka diya. "to kya chal raha hai?" "nishaan, um." usaka gala saaph kar dega. "yahaan koee hai jise aapako dekhane kee aavashyakata hai." usakee aavaaj ke sanket ke baavajood ki main shaant rahane vaala hoon, ek chhotee see kampakampee meree reedh kee haddee ko neeche kar detee hai. "vil- ve hain- kya unhonne kiya hai-" main ek vaaky ko ek saath rakhane ke lie haathaapaee karata hoon kyonki vah daravaaje se baahar nikalata hai. main use ghoorate hue, nivedan karate hue, ummeed karata hoon ki vah mere man ko hamesha jis tarah se padhe aur mujhe bata sake ki kya chal raha hai. main jo kuchh dekh raha hoon vah usake chehare par ek ajeeb lag raha hai jo mujhe aashcharyachakit karata hai ki vah vyakti kaun ho sakata hai. mainne yah sochate hue apana sir jhuka liya. is prthvee par aisa koee nahin bacha hai jise mujhe dekhane mein koee dilachaspee ho. khair, shaayad ek vyakti. is tathy ko chhodakar ki yah usake hone ke lie shoony arth deta hai. kya usane gambheerata se mere paksh mein phaisala kiya hai jo mainne usake saath kiya hai? mainne apana sir gira diya. nahin, koee raasta nahin hai. ve shaayad mujhe chhalane kee koshish kar rahe hain - mujhe lagata hai ki main surakshit hoon isase pahale ki ve mere neeche se galeecha kheench len aur - "skaaralet," ek mahila aavaaj bolatee hai. main use apanee disha mein ja raha hoon aur main jaldee se dekh raha hoon. vah ek bej trench kot aur lambe kaale joote pahanatee hai. usake halke baal ukhad gae hain aur usake sir ke peechhe ek gandee gaanth ho gaee hai. mujhe aisa lagata hai ki main ladakee ko jaanata hoon, lekin main apanee ungalee us par nahin rakh sakata jo vah hai. "skaar, its mee," vah kahatee hai, ab jor se. vil ke alaava keval ek vyakti hai, jo mujhe skaar kahata hai, lekin yah usaka nahin ho sakata. yah asambhav hai. "krpaya mujhe yaad rakhen," vah jaaree hai. ladakee kee aavaaz bilkul usakee jaisee lagatee hai; har shabd vah kahatee hai, ek geet kee tarah lagata hai. usakee aavaaj naajuk hai, lekin majaboot hai. vah asahaj roop se hilatee hai. yahaan tak ​​ki jab vah unhen kar raha hota hai, to chhotee-chhotee harakaten sundar lagatee hain. beshak main use yaad karata hoon, main sambhavatah kaise bhool sakata hoon? keval ek cheej jo main vaastav mein anishchit hoon vah yah hai ki yah kaise sambhav hai ki vah abhee yahaan hai. main itane lambe samay tak aasha par kaayam raha, lekin mere aas-paas ke sabhee logon ne kaha ki usane marana mere lie vishvaas karana asambhav bana diya hai. vichaar pooree tarah se moorkh ban gaya hai, khaasakar badee ghatana ke baad. "tum jinda ho." kya main sabhee ko baahar kar sakata hoon. vah gigals, is tathy se khush hai ki mujhe yaad hai ki vah kaun hai. "theek hai, kya tum mujhe gale nahin doge?" jeevan mere angon par vaapas aata hai aur main usake oopar bhaagata hoon, apanee baahon ko usake chaaron or kasakar lapetata hoon. vah khud ko thoda oopar uthaatee hai - main us samay mein bada ho gaya hoon - jab main yahaan tha - aur apane sir ke chaaron or ek haath lapetata hai aur mere dhad ke chaaron or, mujhe us tarah se pakadata hai jab main chhota tha; jis tarah se vah gir gaee jab main gir gaya aur kisee ne mujhe rote nahin dekhana chaaha. main vaapas kheenchata hoon aur usakee chanchal aankhon ko dekhata hoon jab vah mere chehare ka adhyayan soch samajhakar karatee hai. mujhe abhee bhee vishvaas nahin ho raha hai ki vah abhee jeevit hai, aur abhee mere saath hai. main thoda muskuraaya. "us raat kya hua- aap yahaan kaise aae?" vah dheere se poochhatee hai. mera chehara utar gaya. "main aapase ek hee baat poochh sakata tha." "aisa nahin hai, hamaare paas samay hai, ham nahin hai?" vah mere gaalon par kheenchatee hai, jisase mujhe phir se muskuraana padata hai, lekin main ise pahale se kam utsaah ke saath karatee hoon. "duniya mein har samay." mainne sir hilaaya, mere pairon kee or dekhate hue. yah sachchaee se sabase door kee baat hai, lekin main is sachchaee ka saamana karane ke lie taiyaar nahin hoon - is tathy ka saamana karane ke lie ki aaj mera aakhiree din jeevit ho sakata hai. main yah nahin sochana chaahata ki main jald hee phir se usase kaise alag ho jaoonga kyonki yah bahut khataranaak hai aur yah usake jeevan ko khatare mein daalane ke laayak nahin hai. agar vah kisee tarah se bina kisee ko ehasaas karae yahaan se nikalane mein saksham thee, to vah is tarah se baahar nikal paegee. use karana hai. vahaan koee raasta nahin main use is gandagee mein choosa ja raha hai mere saath kisee bhee adhik se adhik vah pahale se hee hai. usane meree chuppee ko notis kiya aur apane sir ko said mein jhuka diya. “theek hai, nishaan? kya aap apanee kahaanee saajha karana chaahenge? baad mein main aapako vah sab kuchh bata sakata hoon jo aapako jaanana chaahie. ” main apana sir hilaata hoon aur usakee or dekhata hoon. "haan theek hai." vah muskuraatee hai. "bahut shuruaat se shuroo karo." "yahaan tak ​​ki saamaan jo aap pahale se jaanate hain, aap chaahate hain ki main bhee kahoon?" "main ek riphreshar ka upayog kar sakata hoon." vah bistar par sikudatee aur sarakatee hai, main usake paas baith jaata hoon aur apane pair paar kar leta hoon. usake sir ko kamare mein jhonk dega. "kya?" "main shaamil ho sakata hoon?" vah majaak ke saath poochhata hai. main us par aankhen ghumaata hoon aur vah chupachaap hansatee hai. "theek. aao, baitho. bas tumhaare peechhe ka daravaaja band kar do, theek hai? " kamare mein ghus jaega aur daravaaja band kar diya, jaise mainne poochha tha. phir vah bistar kee or bhaagane lagata hai. "karenge," main sakhtee se kahata hoon. vah khud ko mere bagal mein gira deta hai, mujhe apane aashcharyachakit atithi ke kareeb dhakel deta hai. "kuchh gadabad hai, nishaan?" vah muskuraata hai aur main us par apana sir hilaata hoon. ab bhee mujhe prashansa karanee hogee ki vah kitana aashaavaadee hai- use vaastav mein sochana chaahie ki ham ise jeevit karenge. ya vah sirph mere lie kar raha hai, yah sunishchit karane kee koshish kar raha hoon ki aage jo aata hai usake baare mein chinta karane ke bajaay main abhee kee saraahana karata hoon. lagata hai ki vil bhee hoga. "kuchh nahin," main javaab deta hoon, apanee shikaayat saajha nahin karane ka phaisala karata hoon. mere bagal vaala gora ek baar taalee bajaata hai. "to theek hai. baat karana shuroo karo, nishaan vah mujhe aur mujhe gaharee saans leta hai. main pichhale varsh ka punarmilan nahin karana chaahata, yah bahut adhik hai- bahut adhik dard, bahut adhik chinta, bahut bura. main vaastav mein kabhee bhee nahin chaahata ki main pichhale saal phir se apane saath mil rahee bhaaree bhaavanaon ko mahasoos karoon. lekin main ise vaise bhee karata hoon, aur main ise ek muskaan ke saath karata hoon. main akela nahin hoon; mere paas vil hai aur ab mere paas bhee hai. aur mere lie, kam se kam, yah paryaapt hai.

toophaan se pahale kee shaanti adhyaay 1 bas, sabhee umr ke logon ke saath bheed, dheere-dheere get ke baahar mere pados mein ek thaharaav aaya. haalaanki ham lagabhag ek ghante tak yahaan baithe rahe, lekin kisee ne bhee hataasha ke koee lakshan nahin dikhae- yah saamaany shishtaachaar tha. mool amerika, ya kisee any desh se kisee ke lie, vaastav mein mera pados ek videshee nivaas sthaan jaisa dikhega. lekin hamaare lie, ye seement hausing ikaiyaan - sabhee ek hee sateek praaroop mein modaling karatee hain, aur sabhee ek hee sateek laal jhande kee udaan bharatee hain- ghar. main isake baad kisee any tareeke se isakee kalpana nahin kar sakata tha. aavaas keval ek cheej nahin hai jo amerika ke kaipshaniyan banane ke baad badal gaya hai. ab, shaanti hai- kuchh amerikiyon ko ateet mein bahut baar anubhav nahin hua. iseelie hamaare netaon ne badalaav karane ka phaisala kiya. yah badalaav vaastav mein behatar ke lie tha. kaipshanam mein niyamon ko adhik saavadhaanee se viniyamit kiya jaata hai. apane kaaryakram ka paalan karen, dainik kaaryon ko poora karen, doosaron ke prati dayaalu aur vinamr rahen aur sabakuchh theek ho jaega. lekin agar aap kisee niyam ko todate hain - to aap kisee bhee niyam ka saamana karenge. vyaktigat roop se, mujhe kabhee bhee ek praadhikaran vyakti dvaara phatakaar nahin lagaee gaee, jaise ki gaanv ke rakshak jo pratyek pados ke baahar prateeksha karate hain.


isalie mujhe nahin pata hoga ki agar ve niyam todate hain to kisee ka kya hoga. main sirph sabase bura maanata hoon. khidakee se baahar ghoorate hue, apane ghar ko dekhate hue, mainne bas chaalak ko un logon ke naam pukaarate hue suna, jinhen vaahan se baahar nikalane kee anumati thee. "braiden kopal, klaudiya heding, henaree jonasan, skaaralet laitsan aur eleesan peetars, ab aap vaahan se baahar nikal sakate hain. shaanadaar din hai, main tumhen kal paanch dekhoonga. ” ham paanchon khade ho gae aur bas ke saamane tak chale gae- pratyek vyakti ne hamaare vyaktigat aaeedee kod mein taip karane se pahale draivar ko alavida kahana band kar diya taaki gaanv ke gaardon ko pata chal jae ki ham din ke lie ghar aa gae hain. meree sabase puraanee bahan elisan ne mera haath pakad liya aur mujhe usake saath bas se utaar diya. takaneekee roop se ham bahanen nahin hain, ham chachere bhaee hain. aur takaneekee roop se, vah mere ghar ka ekamaatr vyakti hai jisase main sambandhit hoon, lekin ham sabhee ek doosare ke parivaar par vichaar karate hain, vaise bhee. aur isake lie, main sada aabhaaree hoon. adhikaansh gharon mein aisa bilkul nahin hota hai, aur adhikaansh bhaag ke lie koee bhee apane ghar ke sadasyon se sambandhit nahin hota hai. ve sabhee sirph ek saath rahate hain kyonki ve ek saath achchha kaam karate hain. janm ke samay, sarakaar aapako aise sadasyon ke saath ghar mein rakhatee hai, jo maanate hain ki aap sabase adhik anukool hain. kaash mujhe pata hota ki ve kaise pata lagaate, lekin yah kaee rahasyon mein se ek hai jo keval un logon ke lie hai jo sarakaar ke lie kaam karate hain. baakee sab andhere mein rahate hain. bhavishy mein, mujhe ek aise jeevanasaathee ke saath joda jaega, jo maanata hai ki sarakaar mera aadarsh maich hai aur saath mein ham un bachchon se bhara ghar banaenge jo hamaare apane nahin hain.


yah bura lagata hai, mujhe pata hai. lekin aapako mujhe vishvaas karana hoga jab main kahata hoon ki yah is tarah se bahut behatar hai. vaise bhee, mujhe eleesan ke saath rahane ka ekamaatr kaaran hai kyonki usakee janm maan kee mrtyu usake janm ke theek baad ho gaee thee aur kaipshaniyam ke paas is tarah kee vishesh sthiti ke lie ek kaanoon hai: yadi koee rishtedaar jaise ki jaivik pita ya maan unake samay se gujarate hain bachche ka janm, bachche ko unake khoon ke rishtedaar ke ghar mein rakha jaana chaahie. is kaanoon ko lyusids ka kaanoon kaha jaata hai. elisan kee janm maan aur meree rakt bahanen theen, jo kaam ke maadhyam se mileen, isalie mera pahale se hee pata tha ki kya hua tha aur us samay se kya ummeed thee, main abhee tak jeevit nahin tha. elisan ko meree jaivik maan ke ghar mein rakha gaya tha, aur kahaanee ka ant hona chaahie tha. mere janm ke ek ya do maheene baad, meree jaivik maan rahasyamay tareeke se laapata ho gaee, eleesan ko ek rishtedaar ke bina chhod diya, aur mujhe ek aur vishesh sthiti ho gaee - ek lyoosid, yadi aap karenge. ant mein, ek ya ek varsh ke baad usakee koee khoj na hone ke kaaran hamen apane sthaayee ghar mein sthaanaantarit kar diya gaya. niyukti se pahale hamaare paas bhavishy ke any ghareloo sadasyon ko dekhane ke lie jyaada samay nahin tha, lekin unhonne socha ki yah ek achchha phit tha. main asahamat hoon. mujhe lagata hai ki yah ghar ekadam sahee tha. bas se utarane ke baad, ham dhaatu ke saamane vaale daravaaje tak ek singal phail lain mein chale gae. klaudiya ne pahale apanee aaeedee darj kee, phir henaree, braiden, eleesan aur ant mein, main. vah din achchha din tha. ham sabhee ek hee samay par ghar jaane ke lie taiyaar the aur aisa bahut baar nahin hua. aamataur par, ham mein se ek, ya ham mein se adhikaansh, kaaryon ko poora karate hue pakade gae the - skool ke kaam ka ek mishran, adhyayan aur vaastavik kaary.

lekin vaastavik kaary bhaag tab tak nahin aaya jab tak ham apanee vyaktigat kshamataon ke aadhaar par kam se kam terah ya chaudah nahin ho gae. bhale hee, ham sabhee ko kaushal ke star ke aadhaar par alag-alag kaary saumpe gae the, isalie ham sabhee bahut alag samay par samaapt ho gae. yah tab choosa jab koee raat ke khaane ke lie ghar nahin tha, ya jab har koee aapake alaava tha, lekin koee bhee paravaah nahin karata hai ki aap ghar kitanee der se aate hain. jab tak aap apane kaam ko achchhee gati se kar rahe hain, har koee khush hai. mere antim ank mein pravesh karane ke baad dhaatu ka daravaaja khula hua tha aur ham sabhee ghar mein chale gae. mainne taaja bhojan ke kisee bhee sanket ke lie hava ko soongha, lekin kuchh bhee nahin tha. main thoda niraash tha, lekin main ise khatm kar doonga. kam se kam ham sab ek saath the.

main apane bhaee-bahanon ke aage udate hue seedhe rasoee mein chalee gaee. main maan se oopar bhaag gaya aur usane mujhe ek bada gale aur mere sir ke sheersh par ek chumban de diya. mainne use poore din skool mein yaad kiya tha. "namaskaar, mere pyaare," usane robot se kaha. "aapaka din kaisa beeta?" yah ajeeb tha. hamane hamesha apane shishtaachaar aur aupachaarik abhivaadan ka upayog kiya hai - jo ki hamen karana chaahie tha. lekin kisee ne kabhee ise gambheerata se nahin liya, yah eemaanadaaree se hamaare ghar mein chal rahe majaak se adhik tha. ham sabhee ne chintit jhalakiyon ka aadaan-pradaan kiya, lekin kisee ne kuchh nahin kaha. khair, henaree ke alaava koee nahin. kaun anumaan laga sakata tha? "main adbhut hoon, maan aur tum, eleesan? usane theek vaise hee javaab diya jaise shuroo mein maan ne bola tha, jo mujhe lagata hai ki ek smaart kadam tha. main soch raha tha ki kya vajah thee use banaane mein. elisan ne usee tarah mahasoos kiya hoga, jis roop mein unhonne use diya tha. aisa lag raha tha ki ve ek-doosare ko ghoor kar sirph gahan baatacheet kar rahe hain.







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